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Really not in a good place today. And now I'm off to spend the night watching obnoxious, pissing, barking dogs that keep me from sleeping. My life sucks. Oh, and hey, it's that day designed to remind me how alone I am, and have always been, and will always be. Grand. Also, I'm totally broke and haven't paid all my rent yet. Still, no job.

Is there a word for thinking about suicide but knowing you're not going to do it? I mean, I'm not suicidal, I can't imagine ever killing myself, but I am thinking about how fucked I am and how much better off so many people would be financially if I weren't around. But, whatever, I'll stick around as long as there are people who want me around.

That all probably sounds more worrisome than it should. I don't want anyone freaking out, damn it. I'm not going to do anything. I'm just really depressed. Also, I'll be off the internet until sometime mid to late tomorrow.
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